Re-evaluating

"True! Sometimes we can even manage to fool ourselves, but not for long!"


This is the comment one of my blogland friends left in response to my last post, "fools rush in",
where i said "You can fool some of the people some of the time, but you can never fool God".

In hindsight i can see that post could have been read and interpreted several different ways, which is fine.
What i meant, at that moment, was how we can seem to be so happy on the outside, but inside maybe we are feeling lost or empty, or maybe life just does not make any sense at that moment.
I guess that is where i am at right now.

I keep my life so full and busy, that i lose sight of my priorities. I am in a frenzy of activity that sometimes, although fun, is meaningless. I lose sight of why we were even put here. I lose sight of the Lord in the midst of it all.
I am glad i am realizing this, and I'm choosing to slow down a bit and let God speak to my heart. He seems far away, and yet i know He is waiting, and has been hoping, I would come to see what is really happening. I would realize, that even though what i do is good, it is not the best. I am caught up in the fun, and work of life, and not Him. I have replaced my drive, my wholeheartedness for Him, with other activities. And that is the emtpy feeling i am having.
Nothing can replace Him in the depths of our souls.

Since i tend to have a very extreme personality, my prayer request is that i find balance.
That would mean not dropping all the other activities in my life, but to just slow down, and give myself time to ponder, to draw near. To go back to a place where i am truly enjoying the process of life, and not just trying to get things finished in a flurry of pressure and activity. That the anxiety i feel would be repaced with peace.


Thank you for letting me bare my soul to you and that i know you will be there with me in this, yet another step, in the journey of life.

Blessings on your Wednesday.

Barbara Jean
Ps 48:1 "Great is the Lord and worthy of our praise".