Saturday, May 29, 2010

I'm doing OK. Thanks for Prayers

I just want to thank those who have been praying for my 'sad'.
Life just brings sad things sometimes, but my walk with our Lord has been steadfast, and for that I most grateful!!!

I know He will never leave me or forsake me.
When I am up, He is there.
When I am sad, He is there.
When my bi-polar has me doing mood swings faster than I can keep up, He is there.
When life seems to be going in circles, He is there.

He is always there!!

I pray you will know the presence of the Lord and His grace, whatever you are feeling today.

hugs and blessings

barbara jean

Friday, May 21, 2010

It's OK to feel sad


First of all, many thanks to those who prayed for me on my sad day the other day, and sent me words of love and encouragement.
I am feeling better.

Reflecting:
It is OK to feel sad.
Life is sad sometimes.

God knew I would feel sad. And it's OK.

He saved my tears in His bottle. (Ps 56:8)
He recorded them in His book.

When I cry for help He is there!

After I read Ps 56, I proceeded to Ps 57.

What a glorious Psalm.

I am safe under the shadow of His wing.
He will send help and save me.
He is loving and faithful.
He will rescue me.
He will destroy my enemies.


When I am focused on Him I am calm and confident.

I will sing praise to His name.
I will thank Him for His goodness to me, for His kindness and love.

Lord I exalt your name, and give you Glory.

Yes, sometimes I feel sad.
But He is always there.

Praise your name Lord Jesus!

Blessings to you all.

barbara jean

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Life

In life, sometimes things are just the way they are supposed to be, but that does not mean I like it.

Like aging parents, cancer, doctor's appointments, changes in relationships, declining health,
and so on.

Just the way life is. But sometimes it saddens my heart.
Other times, I remember God is in control of it all, and I have peace about it.

Today, is a sad day.

Blessings to you, and hope for a peaceful day.

barbara jean

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Sunday Wishes


That you will take time to sit, and have tea with a friend...



Time to sit, and watch the world go by.



sit... and enjoy God's creation.



Blessings on your day.

Barbara Jean

Friday, May 14, 2010

Baring Part Of My Soul About My OCD

I know not too many people read this blog, but I also know God will send just the right people to read it today.

Those people who know about OCD. (for those of you who do not, it is Obsessive Compulsive Disorder).
OCD manifests itself in different ways in different people.
It usually shows up for me when there are things I have buried and do not want/or know how to deal with, but it is time to deal with them. I would deal with them if i knew how.

I am fortunate, in that my OCD is not destructive to myself or others, but it does cause much anxiety for me.

All that said, and not being willing to share the signs of my OCD, (some would sound pretty ridiculous), I am asking for prayer as I sit here shaking, and crying, and feeling sick with it all.

My anxiety level is off the charts, and of course the only time you feel any relief is when you are doing the compulsive thing for a bit. But that causes anxiety because you know what you are doing is out of control. No matter how hard you try, you cannot seem to stop.

You can see it is a vicious circle, and makes me feel crazy and out of control, which makes it even worse.

I do not seem to be able to still myself when this comes on. To quiet myself before the Lord. Maybe it is fear. I don't know.

Enough said. Please pray.

Blessings,

Barbara Jean

PS I just have to tell you, one of my symptoms is too much computer time in blogland. A place I really love to be, but it is out of control. It must feed some need in my soul.
thanks for prayers.