I know not too many people read this blog, but I also know God will send just the right people to read it today.
Those people who know about OCD. (for those of you who do not, it is Obsessive Compulsive Disorder).
OCD manifests itself in different ways in different people.
It usually shows up for me when there are things I have buried and do not want/or know how to deal with, but it is time to deal with them. I would deal with them if i knew how.
I am fortunate, in that my OCD is not destructive to myself or others, but it does cause much anxiety for me.
All that said, and not being willing to share the signs of my OCD, (some would sound pretty ridiculous), I am asking for prayer as I sit here shaking, and crying, and feeling sick with it all.
My anxiety level is off the charts, and of course the only time you feel any relief is when you are doing the compulsive thing for a bit. But that causes anxiety because you know what you are doing is out of control. No matter how hard you try, you cannot seem to stop.
You can see it is a vicious circle, and makes me feel crazy and out of control, which makes it even worse.
I do not seem to be able to still myself when this comes on. To quiet myself before the Lord. Maybe it is fear. I don't know.
Enough said. Please pray.
PS I just have to tell you, one of my symptoms is too much computer time in blogland. A place I really love to be, but it is out of control. It must feed some need in my soul.
thanks for prayers.