Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Re-evaluating

"True! Sometimes we can even manage to fool ourselves, but not for long!"


This is the comment one of my blogland friends left in response to my last post, "fools rush in",
where i said "You can fool some of the people some of the time, but you can never fool God".

In hindsight i can see that post could have been read and interpreted several different ways, which is fine.
What i meant, at that moment, was how we can seem to be so happy on the outside, but inside maybe we are feeling lost or empty, or maybe life just does not make any sense at that moment.
I guess that is where i am at right now.

I keep my life so full and busy, that i lose sight of my priorities. I am in a frenzy of activity that sometimes, although fun, is meaningless. I lose sight of why we were even put here. I lose sight of the Lord in the midst of it all.
I am glad i am realizing this, and I'm choosing to slow down a bit and let God speak to my heart. He seems far away, and yet i know He is waiting, and has been hoping, I would come to see what is really happening. I would realize, that even though what i do is good, it is not the best. I am caught up in the fun, and work of life, and not Him. I have replaced my drive, my wholeheartedness for Him, with other activities. And that is the emtpy feeling i am having.
Nothing can replace Him in the depths of our souls.

Since i tend to have a very extreme personality, my prayer request is that i find balance.
That would mean not dropping all the other activities in my life, but to just slow down, and give myself time to ponder, to draw near. To go back to a place where i am truly enjoying the process of life, and not just trying to get things finished in a flurry of pressure and activity. That the anxiety i feel would be repaced with peace.


Thank you for letting me bare my soul to you and that i know you will be there with me in this, yet another step, in the journey of life.

Blessings on your Wednesday.

Barbara Jean
Ps 48:1 "Great is the Lord and worthy of our praise".

6 comments:

southerninspiration said...

Isa. 41:10, take the time you need to let God soothe you......it's good to slow down.

Suzanne

LisaShaw said...

Praying for balance for you Barb. We all need balance in Jesus Name.

Bless you dear sister.

Stacey @ The Blessed Nest said...

Barbara Jean, I think we all feel like this at times in our lives! I just said a prayer for you, and prayed that God would help you find peace in Him :)!
Blessings,
Stacey

Carrie @ Cottage Cozy said...

Hello Barb...my fellow Oregonian Blogger. I can totally relate to your post today. Satan can even work in our busyness to keep us from getting closer to Our Lord! And although the things we are doing seem "good"...we must keep ourselves in check. God must always be our first priority, but even He knows we will continually struggle with this. It's ok....He knows...He made us! Thanks so much for visiting my blog...I will be back again!

I will pray for you!

Stay Cozy, Carrie

Sparkle and Flourish said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog and for your sweet comments. I am glad I found you..another sister in Christ who struggles with proirities and keeping Christ in all we do. Iam a busy Mum of 3 and find time to do everything else and often times put the Lord last. I pray that we all prioritise and put christ first. Blessings, Judy x
P.S. My cards are all 6 x 6 base and I just cut all my shapes with my grid mat underneath.
xx

debi lynn mattingly said...

Hey sweetie!

Thank you so much for your sweet comments at the yaya! And I see you are going through some similar issues. Ya think it could also have something to do with our ages? I know at my age (now in menopause)...my brain is still running, but for some reason my mental, spiritual and physical is not quite what it use to be. :)

Have a beautiful & loving weekend! xo...deb